Saturday, December 30, 2006

9:54 PM
just wanna be the star that shines in your darkness

31 Dec 2006

it's the last day of the year...it's suppose to be the time to party and have all the fun you can have all year...

celebrating the bad things that have gone and thanking for all the good things that had come...

but why am i feeling so down and upset??

i'm starting to hate and wanting to avoid all festive seasons...all special occasions...coz tat's when i feel i am so not needed at all..

seeing all my friends enjoying themselves...that's great..but all the more i feel upset and start pitying myself for being the stupid and the foolish one...

these few days i have been thinking very hard since the day when friends...not one but more than one telling me things which i really dun wish to hear...

they have been telling me...wat have become of me...someone who has the most life the most friends and the most entertainments...what HAPPENED!!!

i dunnoe...am i too tired or i only wish to be someone's spare tyre...anytime anywhere i will always be there...

guess...i will be avoiding all occasions...new year...valentine's...and so on...

my heart is breaking down...

Lord...i need strength...i am crashing by work...i am crashing down myself...i am feeling tired..

maybe i should leave here for a while..alone..no one noes where am i...a place where no one noes me...a place where it doesn't matter who i am to anyone...

how do i find my life back...teach me o Lord...