Friday, December 22, 2006

10:30 PM
just wanna be the star that shines in your darkness

i was suppposed to be much happier....i was supposed to be more contented...i was supposed to be more xinfu...

but in the end i feel more lost than ever...

when i woke up this morning...feeling so excited about everything that's about to happen today...yet the msg i received this morning became the downfall of my mood for today..and it had became the question i was avoiding for the entire year...

"how long will i recover this time if i lose it again?"

i always tot wat u sow u will reap...but now...it doesn't mean tat to me...it's not logical anymore...

u can sow all u want....but it doesn't mean tat the seed will reap coz it also depends on the seed...

another tough festive season...another tough period to go through...

when will my happiness ever last....when will my lost times be gone...

when???